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today has been a very difficuilt day for me. i fixed dinner tonight but think chance got more of his share, lol . i pray for a day soon where the pd is not so bad that i can get some major cleaning on the house done. simple things that some take for granted such as unloading the dishwasher and reloading just takes everything out of me. but i will get the house ready by friday if it kills me. we are having a weekend with the girls for brianna's birthday. she will be turning 11 and this is killing me she is growing up so fast and in some ways is the girliest girl but in others is the biggest tomboy there is how can this be lol. one day she gets all dolled up for school the next she wears osu sweats. this girl confuses me. danielle on the other hand is just plain girlie. the little southern belle u could say. i believe someday she may be misss america. she loves getting dressed up and pictures taken of her. lol which since getting a new tripod for christmas (thanks gene and lynette) i am most eagerly excited to take her pics. thursday marks the 5th year since i lost samuel as this day grows closer it gets harder please pray for me. i know for some reason that God decided he would be better of with him in heaven, but it doesn't make me miss him any less i keep thinking what he would look like now he would be 4yrs old would he be a mommys boy? well enough for now i am going to bed maybe sleep will come tonight