life and death

With new life there comes death. Happy times bring sadness. I dont know how to deal with the loss that happened to me personaly 4 years ago today. I lost a son before he had a chance to even begin his life it was over it haunts me to this day what could i have done different if i stopped my meds for parkinsons would that have saved him. Gods plans are greater than mine and i have to have faith and believe in what he has in store for me . I was only 20 weeks pregnant but was told it was a boy and i named him Samuel Richard, a few days later i lost him. i have not gotten over this and pray it gets easier to deal with but he will always be a part of my and a piece of me is missing. i never got to hold him never got to say goodbye maybe this is why its so hard.

resolutions

Ok i have heard everyone's resolutions for the new year, i never make them because i feel that they are mostly never kept anyways so why make them. So here i go im going to make 5 of which i would like to do this year sit back and have a good laugh.

1. Be a better mom always listen and play more.
2. Read my Bible more
3. Help others in need my # 1 in this area is people with parkinsons
4. loose weight
5. quit smoking

Brohters Graduation

I am so proud of my brother. He is a husband of a wonderful woman, a father of 3 beautiful children ty sarah, and jacob. The most impressive part of my brother is that on top of a full time job he is also a preacher at Hope Freewill Baptist Church, and if that is not enough he has put his self through school he just graduated with his masters in counseling. I am truly impressed he is such an inspiration to me. I just want him to know im so proud of him.