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i love this pic.....i think the pic speaks for itself

The girls ask alot of questions about when they were little. I have one memory that is one of my very faorite. Brianna wasn't even a week old , i think she was 5 days old and we went to spend friday night with gene and lynette. Brian was there and this was the first time he got to see her, she was wearing a purple sleeper with a white onesie. i remember him holding her while reading a book, i fell asleep on the floor. he never woke me up he just held her until i woke up she never cried. She was named after him and my sister brian and diane and we got brianna her middle name came from grandma charlotte. i can tell you one thing brianna loves to pick on brian i think she bonded with him that day. not to say that she favors any over the other but anyways this was something on my mind.


Danielle on the other hand loved to play tricks on me from day 1. She was suppose to be a boy. they told me the whole time she was a boy, so i bought blues greens and yellow sleepers. also to bring him "her" home in i had dress pants white shirt button down and a vest with a bear. lol so to my suprise when they reached her to me and said its a girl i knew she would be danielle .....from daniel in the lions den. and her middle name is carolyn after my mother...

i guess its just good to look back on the past.. i asked my dad about his first memory of me when i was born and he told me the first thing he did was went and bought a box of cigars for work that night and handed them out sayin "ITS A GIRL" i have always been a daddys girl always have always will................

remodeling

a couple of weeks ago i went to the dr to find out i have fibramyalgia and mono. he tells me to get plenty of rest,( which in my mind says something totally different )
cause that friday i start ripping carpet out of 4 rooms in my house painting 2 rooms staining and pollying the 4 floors. now it takes me and my daddy almost a week to get this done and now im paying for it pyhsically. but i must say it was worth it i love the look of the floors. what i can say about them are the floors were stubborn bullheaded but beautiful just like me lol rik likes that saying. heres a couple of pics before my camera got boxed up.

Life

I have finally found an Internal Medicine Dr. This means i no longer have to deal with my family physician which in reality is no at thorough as she use to be. She has been my dr for 10 yrs but for the past couple of years she has slacked you could say. my wbc has been elevated for a month ,,,,a month,,,,,now keep in mind that i have been on antibotics (different ones) and steroids since may. So this is just my thinking but that would rule out an infection right. Well the drs are doing no test to see what is going on. Also she scheduled me to have a ERCP with 2 different drs. the same test with 2 different drs. to me this is just not right. So i am praying that this new dr will find whats wrong and help me i am in just so much pain lately i have no energy i sleep all the time and still have no energy. Please pray for me and my family.

being a mom

The most amazing part of my life is being a mom. I admire my mom more than any other woman on the face of the earth. She has taught me so many things, love , tenderness, kindness i could go on forever with the things she has taught me and still to this day i learn from her. The most amazing thing i have ever heard is my little girl say " mommy i want you " or " mommy i love you " with everything that has gone wrong in my life i knew i could always count on my mom to talk to , to cry with, or just sit in quietness. I pray i can be that kind of mom to my girls , always be there for them listen and guide them in the right direction. With GODS help i know i can. My girls are wonderful girls, i believe they have good manners (sometimes they need work but they are good ) they behave well in public for the most part. They dont give me trouble other than at home. but i have to say overall they are good kids and i am so proud of them. they are the reason i strive to do the best i can be is for them. My mom is my best friend i can tell her anything. But there is also another woman in my life that i admire also Lynette (riks mother) she has been there for me on countless occasions i consider her a close and dear friend also. because when i seek advice i ask 2 people my mom and lynette. they have always been there for me and i believe they always will. but 3 other mothers that i observe and learn from is my sister melissa, my sister n law melissa schindler and amy schindler they are amazing mothers and i love and admire then dearly.

Today i have felt GODS MERCIES. I know people are praying for me i can feel it and i thank you all for that. I am so blessed with family and friends that care so much about me. I love each and everyone of you. I reallly want each of you to know that you have touched my life in ways you will never know. I know GOD is with me HE shows me everyday how lucky i am with 2 beautiful healthy daughters and a husband who loves me and takes care of me. Which I thank GENE AND LYNETTE for , you have raised a wonderful man that you should be proud of. We have our differences but we have also learned to work through them, I know that GOD put me and rik together for a reason and i know that i love rik always have and always will. He is my one true love, my soul mate , my best friend. I have learned alot about myself in the last 5 years, some not so good but people change and i think i have changed for the better. To all my parkie family you have changed my life in ways unbelievable , you have helped me through tough times and have made me laugh in good times. I pray that everyone experiences GODS MERCIES the way i have lately. I have truly been blessed.


LOVE TO ALL
Wen

Have you talked to GOD?

I pray daily all day long seems like about something. Constant prayer right. Well i go to the dr tomorrow to find out the result of my blood work, the first part of the test showed that i may have lupus, anyone who really knows me knows that this freaks me out and i am a rack of nerves, panic attacks etc.... But i couldnt sleep the other day and i was on the porch talking to GOD and i heard softly 2corinthians 12:9 THis verse has taught me alot. It has taught me that i need to rely more on GOD and His Will than trying to fix things myself. There are just some things out of my control and i have to learn to let them go.