LIFE

Sometimes i wonder what is my purpose here in this world. There are so many confusing things that i dont understand. 1. abortion i know this is a very sensitive subject but here is my stand ....I DO NOT BELIEVE UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCE IN ABORTION. I believe that for some reason or another that the baby was created for some reason BY GOD. I dont see how someone could kill an innocent child for their own selfish reasons. Children are the most precious thing in this world if you dont think you could raise the child then their are people who cant have children who would love to adopt. I would love another child myself but it is impossible for me, adoption isnt an option for me either not until there is a cure for parkinson's. My kids are the most important things in this world to me (WELL THE SECOND THE MOST IMPORTANT IS JESUS CHRIST) but you know what i mean they are why i do the things i do to help find a cure for parkinson's because i never want them to hear the words i heard 4 years ago. I put all my faith in My Lord and Saviour and know that He will bring me through whatever trials i am dealt with here in this world. And believe me i have had my fair share and will take on more so my kids don't have to i will do anything to help them and keep them safe.
I guess i have gone on enough for now hopefull the girls will be willing to take a nap. lol i doubt it though

here's what he says what an outlook on life INSPIRATION

Ten years after shocking the world with the announcement that he has Parkinson's, Michael J. Fox is aggressively fighting the disease – and says he still sees a bright future ahead.

"Based on how I feel now," the star tells PEOPLE in its new issue, "I'll be okay for at least 10 more years."

Since leaving Spin City in 2000 – two years after revealing his Parkinson's diagnosis on the cover of PEOPLE magazine – Fox, 47, has been focused on raising his four kids with wife Tracy Pollan, 48, and helping The Michael J. Fox Foundation for Parkinson's Research pour $140 million into fighting the disease.

Fox has found a successful combination of medications to keep his symptoms under control. But, he says, the progression of the disease is unavoidable, and "at some point every day" he enters a state of what doctors call "bradykinesia" – in which his arms hang heavy at his side.

But the actor tells PEOPLE he doesn't want anyone feeling sorry for him. In fact, Fox says, having Parkinson's "is part of an amazing life." And it's not "an otherwise amazing life," he clarifies. "It's part of what makes my life amazing."

HERO INSPIRATION

This man shows that life goes on even though you have parkinsons. But look in his eyes the sparkle that once was there the one i saw in washington dc 2 years ago when i met him and hugged him after a speech given on parkinsons disease i hate that parkinsons can rob someone of their smile and sparkle its not bad enough that you have to live with the bradykensia rigidity and dsykenesia all of this is bad but the loss of your smile and sparkle in your eye nothing should ever take that away

Please help us find a cure

THE GIFT OF LIFE

The one thing that i ever did that made me feel like i was making a difference was donating blood. I am 1 pint shy of 5 gallons this makes me so sad and so upset and frustrated because due to my heart surgery i am not eligible to donate again until june of 2009. I know needles scare some people and honestly i dont like them either but somehow knowing i was helping someone else made it all worth the pain or nervousness. i have known people personally who's lives were saved by people who donated blood and that made it even more important to me. and to know that i am willing and wanting to donate and cant and knowing there are people who can and wont just upsets me.

Her eyes are cold and bloodshot
she hasn’t slept in days
And she'd give half of Texas
Just to take away the pain
She knows there’s a cure out there
And she knows its coming soon
cause if there ain‘t , she don’t know what she’ll do

Well, it's pain and tears it’s the sleepless nights
It's the falling down the stairs
it’s the tremors in her hand
She can hardly stand
When will this all go down
its meds every three hours it’s the anger she feels
its dyskensia setting in

When I look into your eyes I know why I’m fighting
Working hard to find a cure for this thing called Parkinson’s disease
Praying everyday that I wake up to see that this whole thing
Has disappeared from me.

Soldiers fighting on for our mission in hand
Marching on brave and strong
The struggles I battle each and everyday
I do for you,

Our battle is not fought with guns or grenades
But with the politicians who cannot see
What we need is for the money to come through
For netrp and stem cell
What a dream come true

Each day death comes knocking
On someone’s door
You wonder is it my turn
To walk through

Will you open your heart
And let evil win
Or walk away
And pray for another day

Without love mercy and grace
You are doomed
To an awful dark place
Treat others as you want to be
Let the ones you love know
Before its to late

Some will understand
Some will not
Its not for you to judge
But to be judged yourself

Stand on your own on that final day
When death comes knocking
Or comes your way

You have to think
Will anyone care
Will anyone notice
If I’m not there

Will they shed a tear
For someone who
Loved them so dear
Or think to themselves
She never really cared

Think before you speak
And tell them each day
I love you and need you
In every single way

I love you all
And want you to know
If I don’t wake up
You rocked my soul

I was a better person
Because of you
You let your light shine
Through and through
Never doubt how I feel
About you today

By Wendy Schindler

BY THE WAY THIS IS NOT SUICIDAL ITS JUST HOW I FEEL AT TIMES I WILL NEVER KILL MYSELF JUST FOR THOSE WHO ARE THINKING THAT LOL